so I’ve done this thing called 100 days of happy before. But then it was a struggle to be happy. Now though.
I talk about real life because I can’t keep my head in the sand all my life, but I’m a happy lady these days.
Walking down the street. Head held high, smiling and speaking.
Today though. My happy story starts with obedience!
I wind up taking care of my important business early. Friday my doctors office said my doctor had no appointments until October. I’m like I don’t know about who a lie, but my God is the truth!
I felt the urge in my spirit to just go to the office. How can they deny 5’8.5 236 pounds of smiling brown woman in front of them?
So I get to see her. God 1, the enemy been defeated!!!
Anyway after going to pay a bill, I feel that familiar urge this time telling me to take the bus to my daughters school. But I’m like the train is faster. It’s 1 pm and I can’t be late for my precious ladybug 🐞🐞🐞.
Then I’m like God?!!? Who you want me to meet on the bus?
And I’m sitting across from him. I can’t help but notice his hand. And I think of my friend. My beautiful friend who had his hand caught in some machinery.
This man too looks as if he had some trauma to one of his fingers, and I can’t help but listen to him sing his beautiful melodies.
So I’m hearing him sing brick house, and I smile.
My momma. Built like a thoroughbred in her heyday, 22 inch waist, is why all these pounds on me and my waist be like 31 inches give or take. Well that was fifteen pounds ago. But still. More muscle than fat covers my frame.
I’m just online finding what belongs to me and mine.
I want it all back.
But I look up at him curiously as he begins to sing a song about being a soldier for the Lord.
I smile again.
He said Gods soldiers can’t be cowards.
It’s funny I was just having this conversation with my grandmother the day before.
I’m not afraid of anything!
Only God. Fear God, like not afraid but that awe like fear. Never man.
I asked him how did he know though?
So he continues. He tells me it’s the glow I have that let him know I was for God. He told me to stop trusting people. As long as I have Jesus who do I need?
He talked about me always being in my books. Getting that knowledge about life and God. And not having time to chat with girlfriends. If they not trying to go to that higher place in Christ with me I leave them behind.
He told me the type of man I needed. I was like man, God I was just saying that’s what I wanted. And then he went into how rich I am.
He said if you doing work for the Lord and you receive a penny you are far more rich than these others. Your words about the Lord being delivered all over the world, and if all you get is a penny you are richer than all these people, basically what he said, doing it for vain glory.
Like those apostle Paul preached of.
Phillipians 1:15 It’s true that some are preaching out of jealousy and rivalry. But others preach about Christ with pure motives.
But what Paul went on to say was what does it matter as long as the good news about Christ is being preached.
And when he got off the bus all I could say was that was God using him. I hadn’t said one word to him. He didn’t know me. I had never seen him before.
That gift of prophecy used to edify. See prophecy confirms what God has already shown or given me.
Obedience. Better than sacrifice.
1 Samuel 15:22,23 22 But Samuel replied,
“What is more pleasing to the Lord:
your burnt offerings and sacrifices
or your obedience to his voice?
Listen! Obedience is better than sacrifice,
and submission is better than offering the fat of rams.
23 Rebellion is as sinful as witchcraft,
and stubbornness as bad as worshiping idols.
So because you have rejected the command of the Lord,
he has rejected you as king.”
We can give our servitude all day long. Sacrifices ain’t obedience.
The same reason Moses didn’t make it to the promised land.
The Lord is telling us all to do something.
I hope you’re taking heed. I’m repenting and asking forgiveness for slothfulness in obedience.
But that beautiful thing called grace, and mercy!
So when I get home one of my nos have been turned to a yes!
Look at God! He will restore.
Joel 2:25,26 25 The Lord says, “I will give you back what you lost
to the swarming locusts, the hopping locusts,
the stripping locusts, and the cutting locusts.
It was I who sent this great destroying army against you.
26 Once again you will have all the food you want,
and you will praise the Lord your God,
who does these miracles for you.
Never again will my people be disgraced.
I’ve lost a lot. It matters not what I’ve lost. Because I really gained. I gained Christ. And when I gained Him I gained adoption to be called. A daughter of God, and to call Him Abba, Papa, or Daddy!!
And He always hears me.
Man. To know Jesus and know that him sitting on the right hand of God interceding, and praying for me. See it’s because I have a relationship with Jesus, the one the Almighty God said you had to know in order to get to him is a reason to be happy.
I Don’t know about all these angry people anymore. I once was. Now I’m free.
Thank God for Jesus!
See after picking my daughter up and spending a couple hours in the library with her, I allowed her to pick one book so we could read together before bed.
And we just did.
Moments don’t come happier than this, and if they do then I can wait. I want to savor the flavor of what’s on my plate right now. Thank God. My life. Full of smiles and sunshine no matter how dark the clouds may seem to be telling me there is no sun.